So i don't know about all of you, but latley life just seems like too much to deal with on my own, ya know? its been a crazy year, trying to figure out who i am and where im going. well, first off, ill tell you a little about me :). My names Bella, im 19, i live in a pretty dull town in tennessee. im a child of divorce (shocking, i know), but most of my life has consisted of fighting with my dad. he did some terrible things to my mom, my family, me...so needless to say im not sad that we dont communicate. ive always had bad relationships. well, not all bad, but none have ever worked out. i tend to always end up with the cheaters, liars...always. i dont know what it is. but i guess all thats changing now. you know how theres always that one person that you always come back too? you know, somehow you just always end up together. well i met that person for me in middle school actually. we dated off and on throughout high school too. he cheated on me (of course), but we were young and we were such different people back then, its crazy. one night i randomly called him, we ended up talking ALL night, and have been together ever since. im hapy, i really am, but am i the only one out there who has such bad trust issues that you dont know what to do? i know it seems stupid, obv if he cheated on me before, he'll do it again..but i dont think so. weve talked about getting married, were together everyday, its not that. im so scared of planning my life around something, having faith and trusting in someone else, that its really starting to affect me. not just me, but my relationship too. what to doo.
You cannot protect yourself from sadness without shielding yourself from happiness
